Survival carried us through seasons we did not choose.
But survival also leaves its mark. And sometimes the strongest thing we can do is admit that endurance has taken a toll — not as a sign of failure, but as an honest recognition of how much we have walked through.
And this is where the message of hope begins again: the God who strengthened you to survive is also the God who longs to restore what survival wore down.
This is the message God continues to press gently into my heart, the message behind Still Looking for Good: God’s goodness is not proven by the absence of hardship. His goodness is revealed by His presence within it.
There’s a quiet line in John 9 that won’t let me go:
“Jesus heard that they had thrown him out, and when He found him…”
It’s easy to miss—but it tells us everything about the heart of Jesus.
He didn’t just heal the man born blind and walk away.
He came back for him.
When rejection tried to silence the miracle, Jesus showed up again—not just to comfort, but to call.
And as I sit with all that God stirred up in me after She Speaks—what I let go of, what I reclaimed, and what I’m walking into next—I realize:
That’s what He did for me too.
He found me.
And He’s not finished.
“Do you believe?”
I do.
Welcome, sister. If you’ve ever felt too broken, too tired, or too far gone for God to use – you’re in the right place. Jesus still sees you, loves you, and calls you worthy. Let’s walk this road of healing and faith together.
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I used to be really good at church.
I knew how to smile, serve, and say all the right things—
even when I was falling apart inside.
Depression, anxiety, and unanswered prayers made me feel like I had to hide my struggle, especially around other believers.
But holding on to God didn’t always look like bold faith—it looked like showing up broken and whispering, “Help.”
In this post, I’m sharing what helped me stay connected to God when my strength ran out… and how I began to see His goodness again, even in the middle of the mess.
After a season of silence, I’m returning-with grace, honesty, and hope. A note to the woman who wonders if she can start again.
I didn’t plan to get quiet. But grief, healing, and exhaustion caught up to me—and somewhere between believing in the calling and wondering if I could still carry it, I fell silent. This is my gentle return, and an invitation to yours. You don’t have to be healed to follow Jesus. You just have to be willing.
First Light Reflections | May 2025 devotional, scripture, and journal prompt to help Christian women notice God’s goodness and grow steady faith.
